All I Wanted for Christmas

Today has not been a good day.

It started innocently enough.  Got my radiology reports from the hospital - - they do not show a break, thank god.  Went to the chiropractor, and then to lunch at Morton's.  I think getting my radiology reports was the highlight, because it all went downhill from there...

Lunch was supposed to be relaxing, except that it wasn't.  Then the three of us went to Wal-mart (the husband) for cat and dog food, and to Ulta (daughter and myself) for a birthday present.  Except that the daughter refused to shop for a birthday present for someone she claims to have not seen in a "year or more."  So I asked her to find something she would like, and the only thing she came up with was orange and black nail polish.  All of my finding things resulted in the same response - - "I don't know."  I finally got sick of it and walked to Wal-mart, unassisted, to buy what she wanted - - a gift card.  Which led to my getting yelled at by the husband in Wal-mart for walking there and getting card, which led to my walking out.  The entire way home I kept telling both of them I was tired, and needed to get into bed and relax.

Of course as soon as we got home, the television in the bedroom got turned on so there was no sleeping and relaxing involved.  I ended up trying to sleep in my brother's room, which was cold.  Every time I went into the master bedroom there they were - - husband in his chair, child in my bed, watching tv or on the internet.  Not once did I ever get to get in the bed.  Its not 6pm and they are still upstairs where they want to be, but the person who has the concussion and needs to be resting is down in the basement, cleaning up after the cats and shaking with rage.

I'm tired of being asked what I want for Christmas.  I want to get better.  I want to be able to see.  I want to be able to drive.  I want a new horse.  I want to be able to take care of my parents and to put away all the crap that is sitting in the basement that needs to be put away.  I want to get away when I need to.  I want things to be back to the way they were.  That's all I want.